im feeling..

you know what feeling sucks? theres no name but i can describe it perfectly right now.

feeling like...
youve been hit with a ton of bricks right in the fucking face.
when your heart just stops beating for a second and you feel hollow.
when you feel like you stomach is filled with poisonous butterflies.
when you feel like youre gonna yack because you feel so empty.
when you find something out that you never thought you would care about.
when you just want to slam something into the wall.
when you realize that you truly still do care and that nothing you can do, even with time, can change that.



why do hearts stay in the past when heads are so far in the future? why cant we ever follow through with our heads and not our hearts? how is it possible that hearts have so much power and persuasion that we always listen to them no matter the consequence? things need to change.