Q's.

why do we do things when we know we shouldnt do them? its like something lures us toward the forbidden because were not supposed to have it. why do people continue to hurt themselves over and over just to prove a point? or am i just sadistic?

people want what they cant have. and thats just a simple rule of life. when something is out of reach people will push too hard to get it, and end up driving it away.

life is just full of games. its like one right after another. you get a job and play it out, get fired and play that out, get married, have kids...etc. everything is like a weird mini game within itself. whoever plays the right way ends up on top. alot of the time, you lose. shit happens.

My heart kinda feels like a jumbled up tumble weed. or something similar to this picture on the right... I've never felt so confused and wrong and right at the same time. so sure of everything and then completely reversed. i just want things to go right for once. Natalie said to me today that things never happen when you wait for them. this rings so true. what's gonna happen will happen and thats it.  i just wish there could be someone to untangle this mess i've unleashed on myself.